So, I haven't been very good at checking in and writing much at my blog. It certainly isn't that there isn't plenty to write about these days. I certainly have plenty of material banging around in my mind constantly, but having as much work to do as I have and still finding time to write, well, there just isn't much time for it.
FOR EXAMPLE:
The other morning I was getting ready for the day, doing the kind of things ladies do before they like to be seen by other people. I had a Crowder CD playing. I was inspired by something in the lyric of the song I was listening to that caused me to connect things I'd heard discussed about people who use the social media platform of Facebook to represent their lives to be these picture perfect existences with the way God feels about people. It's true that most of the people I have as Facebook friends share all the beautiful pictures of their lives, and the impressive stories of their lives and the lives of their family members. Most, with a few exceptions, don't share the dirty details of all the things that go wrong in their lives, they set themselves up for the world to see them at their most glorious, with their perfect spouses, perfect children, fabulously groomed pets and dripping with flavor (and sometimes gravy) meals they have created in their really-ought-to-be-a-famous-chef kitchens. We're all Superman or Wonder Woman on Facebook it seems...
...but BAM, BATMAN! It hit me that for all the trying we muster, for all the narcissism those articles I'd read or stories I'd heard suggested people on Facebook share, no matter how great an atmosphere we try to whip up around ourselves in the world of social media, we will never comprehend the value God has placed upon each of His children. We can't make our lives look as incredibly, unimaginably special as we are to God. Let that sink into your spirit and heart. No matter how hard we try, or how many pictures we stage, we'll never make ourselves out to be quite the masterpieces that God knows we are. He made us. We can't, and others can't, comprehend how immensely precious we are to Him.
But, I didn't have time to write about it that day...I didn't have time to do all my homework for my Mt. Comfort Bible Study Class this week either so instead of going to the actual class this week, I opted to just stay home and catch up on all the homework I hadn't got done. Now I am caught up, ready to start this week's homework.
I have found it does no good to get frustrated over the things I'd like to do or say if I had the time to do or say them. I'd probably just make more messes out of things and say more wrong things if I had more time to spare.
It's probably a good thing I stay so busy. I like the place to which the Lord has led me. I like the simple life I have here at this farm, though sometimes my life seems anything but simple, when nothing seems to go the way I think it will or should but, I've resigned myself to that, resigned myself to just accepting this life I have as it is and being content in it. I like the flexibility of it and I try to preserve that flexibility. A writer (if I am one at all) or a creative person (which I know I am) needs some flexibility with which to play...flexible time is the clay of the potter. I still need that time. I have always needed to let my thoughts just sort of wander around in that wilderness river-running exerciseness Clarence taught so many of us in that creative writing class so very long ago. I need that time of meditation and reflection to draw what I learn from God's Word into the circle of understanding which shapes it into usefulness and structures it into life. The application of it, that is what we call it. Applying the Word to our lives. No Bible study is worth anything at all if it cannot be applied and used in every day life.
And, I need that flexible time to think about how my thinking doesn't matter one whit, not a single whit and that anything I could ever write doesn't add a single revelation to the universe full of wisdom God holds in one single, incomprehensible (to mankind) thought He holds.
John Piper says, "God is most glorified in us when we are most satisfied in him." That is one of the most profoundly simple things I've ever heard in my life, and my spirit knows it is true. Hearing it has released me into freedom. With the realization that all. I. really. need. to. do. is find my satisfaction in God comes freedom, comes relaxation, comes a giving over of one's own will and want. I often remind us in our Bible study group that it doesn't matter what I think or what you think, it really only matters what God thinks. We need to align our minds to His because He will never bend His to ours - How could He?
Let the wicked forsake his way, And the unrighteous man his thoughts; Let him return to the LORD, And He will have mercy on him; And to our God, For He will abundantly pardon. "For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways," says the LORD. "For as the heavens are higher than the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways, And My thoughts than your thoughts." -Isaiah 55:7-9
